the quest begins

It is with great excitement and hope that I greet 2010.  I feel that this will be a very powerful year, on many levels.

I didn’t want to create “resolutions”, because those well-intended bursts of energy are so often lost as life — reality –  creeps in.  And that just sets the stage for self-blame and judgment and guilt…  who needs that? I decided, instead, to focus on a theme. This year, for me, will be The Quest for an Artful Life.

Those who have known me for a long time will know of my constant struggle with my creative Muse. She and I have gone back and forth for years now… a tug of war, with many ups and downs and highs and lows. Music and sound have always been the structure in which I have tried to express myself, but honestly, I am just not feeling it like I used to feel it. This has been my first inkling that I need to find some new ways; explore some new avenues. Music is there, it always will be, but I need to shake up my world a bit. And so I am going to do just that. I am tired of this ‘simply existing’ mode that I have found myself in. It’s time for me to embrace the life that I have always wanted… and this 9-5, Monday- Friday world is not it; it never has been. How will I do it? I’m not quite sure of the logistics, but I know that the Universe supports those who leap for their destiny… so this is me trusting, and stepping onto that Rainbow Path.

As I step boldly into the third trimester of my pregnancy, of carrying this amazing little being , I trust that I will continue to find the deeper meaning of creativity and creation. Having just read a wonderful birthing article in the latest issue of Mothering, the phrase “Ring of Fire” is resonating in my head.  Fire cleanses and prepares the way for new life, new moments.

So, with that, I embrace my own personal ring of fire, and cross through it.

Eugene Buchko's Ring of Fire